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Wednesday, 28 January 2004
Gotta start some where
I'm starting this blog, because I think it would be interesting, and I'm really bad at verbalizing things or just talking about them. I hope if people read this they will see the real me. I'm gonna try and forget that people I know might read this, and be as really as possible. If this affends anyone then just stop reading, and don't talk about reading this.
Well it finally a new year, and like a month. This has to be amuch better year then last. 2003 just sucked. I seriously can't remember a more tramatic year.
Let's see. Started out ok. I saw an old girlfriend and a newyears eve party. I hadn't seen Kelly in like three years, Not since she left me to goto school in Pittsburg. It was really ocward to see her, but I wanted to have a friendship so I asked her to hang out. This come's into play later.
I also start the year with feelings for one of my best friends Melanie, But I'm a fraid to act on it. This also comes in later.
Things are pretty normal till like April. Inbetween then I've been heavilly hanging out with Kelly. Which is good, we have a kickass friendship but I also start to have feeling for her again. I also have some very strange confersations with Melanie about dating that lead to no where. the biggest things that happened at this time where that my father got into a really bad car accident. Without the grace of God he could have died. It was really scary. It really fucked me up to see him in the hospital like that. My dad's probly the most stoic person I know, but to see him scared like he knew he almost died, man that really freaked me out.
Then also at the same time I was leaving a job I'd been at for like 4 years, to start a job as a stonefabricator. That really screwed me up. I'm very much a creature of comfort, and leaving a job were my friends are, and I know everyhting about it, to imbark into a job i know nothing about is not comfortable. It really disorented me for awhile, and was very depressing.
After months of "hanging out" with Kelly it's turned into this weird dating but not really thing. I had no idea what to do with it. I care about her, but I also care about Melanie. Never had this kinda thing happen before. This is about May ish.
This is areal crazy thing for me. It's not like i've never cared about anyone before, or that I've never had girlfriends or any of that stuff. I've never had it happen with two people at the same time. then It get's to the point that I think kelly wants to have sex with me, and I wasn't trying to have that kind of realationship. Then like a couple weeks latter Malanie wants to start dating. I did what I thought was right, I kinda wigged out and stoped seeing Kelly and started dating Melanie in June.
Shit this is alot so I'll post the last six months of last year tomorrow.
Posted by megatron2070
at 10:38 PM EST
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